(I started writing this yesterday and got a little emotional so I decided to come back to this today)
today I walked into my building for the last time, sat at my desk for the last time. For now the excitement of being offered a new job has worn off. Now I'm consumed by fears, what if I don't like my new job, what if I don't get along with my new boss, what if I made a step backwards, all the what ifs you can imagine are running through my head.
and today I suddenly have been overcome by sadness. The fact that I won't see my co-workers who have essentially become my family for the past year and a half. I've laughed so hard I could pee myself so many times with these people, I've cried over heartbreak and loss with these people. I've experienced so many different emotions with these people. Some know quirks and other things about me that my friends and family don't know.
I really didnt want to have a shingdig in my honor. It feels weird to me to be at the center of attention. (ry-guy says this is bs.-ha!) If you've met me IRL you might think I'm an extrovert. In all honesty I consider myself an introvert. I don't like to talk to strangers. My wonderful boss insisted that we do something. I chose Pizza Luce ( a great pizza place here in MPLS) and cupcakes from Sweet Retreat.
my goal for the day was to no cry. I didn't want to cry, because hugs usually come after crying happens. and I'm not into hugs. It was really tough to not cry. I did tear up numerous times when co-workers were saying some pretty nice things about me. Things I don't think about, I just do them since its part of my job. Several people did ask for hugs, I did give them hugs. The last two I received at the end of the day are when I almost lost it bad. I wasn't expecting to feel such emotion from the hugs.
this post has no fun photos. I just wanted to make sure to document this for me as I look back on life.
I start my new job as a Student Services Coordinator this Monday the 21st. I'm heading to Iowa this weekend to see the cutest niece and nephews for Easter.